Indecisive

I struggle with making decisions. Choosing whether I want peppermint stick or Oreo flavored Fro-Yo (frozen yogurt) for dessert after dinner at Lane (the cafeteria at Gordon) sends me into a panic – what do I do?! Each flavor in itself is entirely good. No matter what, I am going to have a sweet treat. However, I may eat that Oreo Fro-Yo and come to the unsettling conclusion that I should have went for the peppermint stick flavor. Now, this is just with ice cream. Imagine how I get when it comes to making IMPORTANT decisions (but don’t tell me that choosing what type of cheesecake I want from the Cheesecake Factory is not important…).

As I have gone about making big decisions this past year (those mostly concerning attending college and other things Gordon related), I have been able to gain some more insight into my decision making process. I, Katrina, get anxious over making the RIGHT decision. Whether it is between which Fro-Yo flavor to get (always choose peppermint stick), or which church to attend, I find I have this need to make the right choice. I find myself standing with a great choice on my right and an equally great choice on my left, but I got make sure that I pick what God wants me to do.

…Could it be, that when I am at a crossroad of picking between two good things that I may be allowed to just simply…make the choice? *gasp*

I know that whatever I choose out of these two choices will be blessed either way, but still, wouldn’t one choice still come out as being the WISER choice? Despite how much I may struggle with this aspect of life, there are a lot of choices I have made that I do not regret in making (like coming to Gordon). And when it comes to the choices that I realize were maybe not as wise, God has always provided a way “out” (whether it being an actual out or Him providing me with the strength needed to just get through it).

Though I may hmm and haw over what choices I may make in life, God knows the plans that he has for me, and for us (and they will prosper, not harm us; they will give us a hope and a future)- Jeremiah 29:11. He didn’t struggle over the cross. And Jesus, though he may have asked (only if it was God’s will) for that cup to be taken away from him, chose the cross. No hesitation. No "let me make sure this is the RIGHT decision." He made the choice. Yup. God is not indecisive.