Dependency

How does one build a dependency on God?

It is not easy. For one, we are all very independent beings. And two, we seem to have a knack for depending on everything but God. I’m not sure why we are like this. Yes, I suppose the obvious reason is SIN. But this is what I don’t grasp: we KNOW that God is Comfort, Joy, Peace, and Love, yet we still choose to depend on things that are just a figment of it. Why must we be so dense?! And I am no excuse.

Where is this all stemming from? Well…

Last night as I trying (emphasis on trying) to sleep, I found myself praying. I was asking God for a church home and family (much like the one that I left back in North Carolina). Within this prayer I asked for a spiritual mentor, not that I don’t have any in NC, but there is something comforting about sitting face-to-face with a person who wants and enjoys giving you spiritual advice and encouragement. So there I was, praying.

If only I had a spiritual mentor, someone who I could turn to when I need advice on ministry or encouragement on my spiritual growth, then things would be easier. Then a light bulb turned on.

How dependent on people am I that I go praying for more to depend on? Friendships/relationships are a beautiful thing, obviously. But could it be that the thing I am praying for…has been with me all along, since the beginning?

The next question: how does one break an unhealthy dependency on others and build a healthy dependency on Christ?

Well…I guess I am going to have to learn and find out!